Monday, January 24, 2011

Lessons from Childcare

I find it interesting that I work so much with children and love it, since I'm terrified of being a parent one day and raising them. Having the responsibility of guiding not only a child's education, life skills, and behavior but also their soul is such a weighty, dread-inducing responsibility. Knowing how to bring up a child biblically - to know and fear the Lord and follow Him all their lives - to guide and discipline in a way that points their hearts to God - what a heavy burden and a high calling. While I sense that to an extent working in childcare (though many times I'm just trying to maintain control over the chaos!), having children only a few hours at a time - I'm just like a sub off the bench who comes in the game for a few minutes to relieve the starters - I don't have that responsibility constantly surrounding me. Sometimes I sit and think about what it would be like to have that responsibility full-time. There was something that came to mind that I actually do have some experience with.

Practicing what you preach. That's one of the other things that has scared me about parenting. You have to model what you tell your kids to do. How can I tell my kids to be kind to others if I'm acting like a grumpy brat? Or tell them to be patient if I'm demanding that what I want now, I should have now. You don't want your child pointing their finger back up to you and saying, "Well, *you* don't do that!"

And it struck me that I am experiencing that right now - I don't have to wait till parenthood. I've been thinking about it a little for a few days. What do I do or say that I tell "my kids" not to do or say?

How about when I get so frustrated with their disobedience or their blank stares or their un-hearing ears... and I get to the point where I want to say, "Seriously, what don't you understand about NO?" I wondered if God sometimes looks down at me and thinks the same thing when I refuse to listen to His rules and want to do it my own way. Especially if it's a sin I continually find myself in - seriously, what don't I understand about "No"?

Or how about "Are you obeying with a happy heart?" I never liked that one as a child. (and as a result, I don't think I've ever said it - but it came to mind) I'd be like, "You're making me do something I don't want to do - of course I don't have a happy heart!" But it made me think - am I obeying God with a happy heart or begrudgingly? I've decided that being a parent or working with children can be convicting if you stop and think about it.

I may not have to be corrected for using running feet instead of walking feet or be told to use kind hands with my friends or to wash my hands after potty - but God knew that there's some lessons I could use. Even the same ones I'm trying to instill in others. Funny how that works.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Heaven Song

I've been listening to a song called "Heaven Song" recently. It's become one of my favorites. Part of the chorus says, "I can't wait to join the angels and sing my Heaven song." I got to thinking about that...

I know angels have particular praises they sing - you can find it all throughout Scripture. And there's particular praises that all the saints gone before us resound collectively in Heaven. But I wonder if we each individually will have a personal anthem of praise - a Heaven song - based on how God has worked and what He has done for each of us personally? We'll see God's had in our lives - every aspect - so clearly there. It's such a neat thought to me. I wonder what Daniel's Heaven song sounds like? I wonder what my own Heaven song will be. It's kind of cool to think about.

You wrote a letter and You signed your name
I read every word of it page by page
You said that You'd be coming, coming for me soon
Oh my God I'll be ready for You

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing my Heaven song

I hear Your voice and I catch my breath
'Well done my child, enter in and rest'
Tears of joy roll down my cheek
It's beautiful beyond my wildest dreams

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing...

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing
No, I can't wait to join the angels and sing my Heaven song

Heaven Song by Phil Wickham

Saturday, January 15, 2011

The Start

Here it is. My first post on my own blog. Feels kind of weird. I've been thinking about getting a blog for awhile now but just recently decided to take the plunge. Here's some of the things I've been mulling over posting about -

*Thoughts on Scriptures I've read

*Favorite songs

*Topics I have a passion for or take an interest in

*Random fun things that catch my eye

*Musings over life's lessons

That's why I said this is for "wandering ponderings" in my sidebar... I imagine this will be full of random thoughts until I can sort out exactly where I want to focus most. So here goes another crazy adventure in my life! :)